Eh...
Most of you have probably figured out that I don't really update here as much. That's partly due to the fact that I don't have internet at my apartment. I also don't spend all that much time at my apartment anymore. I don't really live there all that much. I've been thinking about breaking my lease for the longest time now cuz there have been, from what I've heard, three homicides there since I moved in. One of the guys I knew. His name was Brian. So anyway, it's not exactly the place I wanna be at this point.
Living on my own has turned out to be much more dramatic than I ever really wanted it to be. It's fun and I enjoy being out on my own, but it's really hard to keep the focus on God sometimes. I feel distant and cut off from what I know is real and true. I miss having talks with other Christians. By talks, I mean deep conversations about anything. I miss them because there's already a foundation of belief that we both work upon. I miss the fellowship. What I really miss is the chance to talk to Zay. Not being able to talk to her on a regular basis is driving me crazy. I miss her a lot... and it's rough out here. It's much different around here. I find myself explaining my beliefs, or not really saying anything because I never really have a chance to talk anyway. Between interruptions and getting talked over, I usually get two or three words in. I guess it'll just take some time. I mean, why would I be here if I wasn't meant to be here?
I'm grateful for the church I've gotten involved in. It's been a long time since I did anything tech for a church, so this will be good for me. I think I just need to get into a small group and make some really good friends. It should be good for me, I think. Anyway, I gotta go now cuz I should be writing a paper.
Living on my own has turned out to be much more dramatic than I ever really wanted it to be. It's fun and I enjoy being out on my own, but it's really hard to keep the focus on God sometimes. I feel distant and cut off from what I know is real and true. I miss having talks with other Christians. By talks, I mean deep conversations about anything. I miss them because there's already a foundation of belief that we both work upon. I miss the fellowship. What I really miss is the chance to talk to Zay. Not being able to talk to her on a regular basis is driving me crazy. I miss her a lot... and it's rough out here. It's much different around here. I find myself explaining my beliefs, or not really saying anything because I never really have a chance to talk anyway. Between interruptions and getting talked over, I usually get two or three words in. I guess it'll just take some time. I mean, why would I be here if I wasn't meant to be here?
I'm grateful for the church I've gotten involved in. It's been a long time since I did anything tech for a church, so this will be good for me. I think I just need to get into a small group and make some really good friends. It should be good for me, I think. Anyway, I gotta go now cuz I should be writing a paper.
posted by peak @ 06:40
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